Food, Food, Everywhere is Food!

I wake up; feed the kids & dogs. During breakfast, I make school lunches.  While the kids are at school, I have to think about dinner.  They get home from school, it's snack time.  I can't get away from food!  It's like a drug addict also being a dealer, and being told, "don't use the product".  Seriously!  I am too big to eat whatever I want.  I need to be reasonable and responsible.  It is so freaking hard.  My friend brought me a work out DVD to see if that would motivate me to work out at home.  What do I do, look for a job.  What!!  I am procrastinating to the Nth degree.  I am so full of excuses I amaze myself.  I'm afraid.  Of what, I don't know.  Not succeeding, having others judge me.  just simply not wanting to do this for myself.  It's going to be hard and I am just to darn LAZY to take that first step.  I need to eat better.  I need to exercise.  I need to do this for myself and not give excuses.  You know what my favorite magazine is?  Runners World.  Why?  Awesome articles, very motivational.  good in home work outs.  yummy food.  what do it do, the opposite.  why, because I'm an idiot, lazy, full of excuses, already fat.  Grrr.  ok, here i go.  Jillian Michaels, 30 day shred.  Day 1...